stargatelover7

wow i havent been here for a while...

first i wanna say:

Congrats Starbuck!

cuz she jus got married!!!  hows married life btw???

so nothing is new here except for the musical....i was so excited!  i got one of the female leads!!!  and CONGRATS to Julia who also got one!!!

oh!!  and it was my birthday on Dec. 10!!  i am officially legal!!! 18....WOOT!!

so i cant think of anything else right now but i missed all of you and wanted to say hi and stuff so HIIIIIIII!!!  lol

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omg so many things going on rite now its so hard to pick only a few lol

well first, pep rally was fun.  chanting "SENIORS!!" over and over again kinda wore out the voice tho lol  but i wouldt have traded it for anything..........

then homecoming.  that was definately a lot of fun.  except most of the time it was like watching a porn film lol.  some people jus dont know when enough is enough lol.  but i did talk to paul! 

now we're doing the school play and i'm stage manager!!  yay!! hehe.  i miss the actual acting on stage a little bit but i like what im doing.  it was funny tho.....on friday this guy came in who does fun little exercises with the actors and helps them understand shakespeare better and stuff so he invited me and my friend to do it with the actors and he had people go up and say the lines how they think they should be said so i volunteered to go up. 

apparently everyone liked it and afterward shannon comes up to me and "hits" me and goes "why the h*** didnt you audition?!?  you could've hada lead!"  that made me feel awesome because in the world of acting and singing (this is not meant to sound creepy in any way) i kind of look up i guess to her and rachel. so to hear that from her was a real encouragement.

well thats it for now i guess so i'll talk to you later!

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so tonight my mom started talking about how the economy is starting to fail and whatnot and it kinda scared me.  i mean, i really would love to not have to go through another depression, especially while i'm alive. 

the whole having to save your money and not do anything stupid i completely understand, i just dont like how bleak and scary everything looks.

but, i know that if we make wise decisions with money and stuff like that i think we'll get through it ok.  plus i believe that God takes care of His people so thats always a comfort......

best wishes to all in this sad country...

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hey ya'll.

so i jus took some pics...a lot of pics.....when my hair was curly and stuff for school and i'm gonna get some pics of our Senior Luncheon....which was awesome!!.....paul looked hot.

update:  joe is still pissed (duh), nuthin wit paul (dont think there ever will be but watev), and um.....nothin else i guess.

i'll try to get these pics soon but i have to make the rounds wit some friends and stuff to get em all so i hope none of ya mind the wait.

love ya!

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so yea

so remeber the "friends wit benefits guy"?  yea my friend was talkin to him again cuz i felt bad about ignoring him so she says "so would you wanna start talkin to her again?"  he says "haha i really dont wanna"  jerk off.

sorry bout that but i think some of you can understand my feelings at this.  he's jus being such a jerk rite now.  so i have decided im not going to speak to him until he decides he wants his friend back.  i did NOTHING wrong in this.  i told him the truth and look what he does.  would he want me "dating" him with no feelings for him??????

besides this, my mum tells me a while back that i can talk to her about anything.......i disagree but i told her i'd give it a shot for her sake.  EVERY TIME i try to tell her sumthin about paul or even anyone else she always goes on about how "i should be careful about getting in to a relationship that might be potentially harmful" and how "God already has some guy picked out for me somewhere that while come along sometime"

now before i go on i would like to let ya'll kno that i agree with her on everything she says.  the reason i got mad was because she tells it to me NO MATTER what i say.  i could have said "Paul likes kittens" and she would've said that.  so this was the convo:

Sara-- "guess what?"
Mom-- "what?"
S-- "he likes to write and cook..."
M-- "oh really?"
S-- "Yeeeaaah" *smiles*
M-- "well jus be careful because [insert dialogue from before]"
S-- "omg i am not talking to you about him ever again! DAD! Gimme the keys!"
D-- "what?"
M-- "where are you going?"
S-- "Dad! Gimme the keys!" *to mom* "i'm going in the car so i dont have to listen to you!"
M-- "Dont you talk to me that way!"
S-- "DAD!"  *dad gives me the keys and i leave*

so yea.  lovely night no? and then me and dad get into a screaming fight in the car (wit me driving hehe) about how i never wanna hear him and mom tell me they are worried about me getting into a bad relationship because i'm not so stupid to do that.

D-- "Yea but its sincere concern from the heart--"
S-- "if i have to hear about someone's freaking heart again!"
D-- "We care about you!"
S-- "Yea and if you two keep preaching at me i WILL date him just to spite you!!"

then we got to where we were going and we separated and got time to cool off.  we're still not talking yet.  we will eventually.  we usually get over these things in about a night.  my mom however usually takes a few days so fun fun fun for me.......

sorry for the length

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1. Do you like blue cheese? No, eeewww...

2. Have you ever smoked a cigarette? no

3. Do you own a gun? No

4. What flavour do you add to your drink at Sonic? never been there so wouldnt kno

5. Do you get nervous before doctor appointments? eh depends on what the visits are for

6. What do you think of hot dogs? love em

7. Favourite Christmas Song? Grown Up Christmas Wish - Kelly Clarkson, White Christmas - Bing Crosby, Prayer - celine dion  and a few others

8. What do you prefer to drink in the morning? Green tea and usually an apple.

9. Can you do push ups? A few.

10. What's your favourite meal? food

11. What's your favourite piece of jewellery? my rings.  cant function w/o em

For some reason LJ  keeps cutting out questions 12-14...    Any one know why????


15. What's one trait that you dislike about yourself? i think im too friendly for some people lol.  plus people think i flirt wen i dont

16. Middle name? maria.  my mom's name.  real origional parents lol

17. Name 3 thoughts at this moment: i wish i was at Ana's, mad at mum, wonder if Paul likes me

18. Name 3 things you bought yesterday: ice cream, groceries, nuthin.

20. Current worry right now? getting a job, boys, car, boys, drama, boys...have i mentioned boys?

21. Current hate right now? responsibility

22. Favourite place to be? somewhere where i'm not being hassled and can be free to do wat i want....so my friends' places

23. How did you bring in New Years? watched the Twilight Zone wit my dad then fought wit parents

24. Where would you like to go? anywhere but here...mostly the UK and Italy

25. Name three people who will complete this? Whoever has time, I guess...

26. Whose answer do you want to read the most? Whoever, I will read them, just to be nosey! : D

27. What colour shirt are you wearing? a white tee-shirt wit an awesome black vest

28. Do you like sleeping on satin sheets? dunno..dont think i ever have

29. Can you whistle? Yes very well in fact

30. Favourite colour(s)? white, green, blue

31. Would you be a pirate? If I looked like Kiera Knightly, yes.

32. What songs do you sing in the shower? watever happens to be on the radio...or whatever pops intomy strange mind.  sumtimes i sing my own stuff lol

33. Favorite girl's name? Liadan and some others

34. Favorite boy's name? dunno rite now

35. What's in your pocket right now? my cell fone

36. Last thing that made you laugh? my friends in study hall cuz they said REALLY loudly that i liked Paul wen he was sitting rite behind me!!  hahaha  i dunno why i laughed but i did....i'm a very easy going person sometimes lol

37. Best bed sheets as a child? dunno

38. Worst injury you've ever had? fracturing my wrist and then my finger in volleyball

39. Do you love where you live? eh....depends.  usually but then who doesnt want to get away sumtimes???

40. How many TVs do you have in your house? two but one doesnt work

41. Who is your loudest friend? ana

42. How many dogs do you have? two, a golden retriever (Emmy) and a samoyed (Bear)

43. Does someone have a crush on you? they might but i'm not counting on it

45. What is your favorite book? anything by juliet marrelier

46. What is your favorite candy? anything chocolate

47. What is your favorite sports team? sabres!

48. What song do you want played at your funeral? legends of the fall .

49. What were you doing at 12 AM last night? Sleeping!!

50. What was the first thing you thought of when you woke up this morning? how i was mad at my dad (i really wasnt i jus had a dream where i thought i was)

k so i was talking to ana who was talking to the guy in the last post...(high school.  u gotta love it) 

anyway so she was talking to him and apparently he's "over the whole friends wit benefits" thing and now he wants to  be friends but he doesnt want me to talk to him yet???  and then he told ana to tell me to back off!!  I HAVE BEEN IGNORING HIM FOR 3 DAYS!!!  ugh.... so he jus wants to be friends now i guess.

i hate guys.  they're all so stupid (minus lee becker cuz he's the nicest guy i kno)  i swear girls could make this world such a better place if guys would take the back seat like we always have to do. i'm so ready to get out of high school

i cant wait for college because i'm hoping some of the guys there will actually act like men instead of little boys.  its probably not gonna turn out that way, but hey u can always hope.  i swear i'm never gonna date any1.  its jus too much trouble and it wastes time.

thank god a girl is in the running for vice president!!!!!!!!  go sarah palin!

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hello again. 

yea so anyway one of my friends decided he wanted to ask me to be friends wit benefits.  i said no cuz i thought it was like being a substitute for something else.  he says okay.  he asks if i like anyone.  i try not to tell him but he keeps pushing and bugging.  so i tell him i was thinking about Paul.  he gets pissed and wont talk to me for the rest of the weekend.

then we're in school and he talks to my friend and says he hopes im not in the lunch cuz i frustrate him cuz he doesnt think we could have a good future as friends if i wont let him gimme a kiss goodbye.  HAHAHA  (that one made my day)

so my friend (who was 2 secs away from punching him) told me i HAVE to ignore him for a while....indefinately.  so i am.

arent high school guys so mature??  HAHAHAHAHA

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so yea i'm REALLY tired lol  getting up at 630am for church isnt fun at all.  and then on tuesday i go back to skool! AH!

so yea i'm stressing a bit but not as much as my cuzin Domi.  he finally came over with part of his family from germany and he's starting high school as a freshman this year so i'll be able to look after him.  not to be mean but he does need looking after. he's got asbergers syndrome only very slightly but its enough to hinder him a little.  so i'm hoping some jerk's not gonna take out after him.  be worried for the jerk if he does  *laughs evily*

and one of my friends wont text me cuz i'm not into him the way he is to me.  i guess he;s a little pissed but oh well.  i cant help who i like and not like.  i do like him as a friend tho.

but besides that, everything is fine lol  

talk to ya'll later

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okay lets see if this works any better....

these are the pics of my bedroom that were supposed to be up last time

these are pics of me.... i got bored in the car an i know u guys wanted em tho i dunno why lol





 

ok i think these are enough pics for now....later i will do more.  hope you enjoy!

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 hey guys!  sorry about that last post.  there were meant to be more pics  but my comp gave me a bit of trouble an didnt let me do more than 1.  i think i figured out the problem so i'm gonna try tonight to get all the pics loaded ok??  thanks for the patience!

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see? i told u i'd get em!!

these are some pics of my room i jus cleaned. yay! :P

 ok i kno i say this all the time, but this time i mean it.   

i am going to post pictures!!!!!!!!!!!  i jus cleaned my room and i think it looks fantastic!  and i promise i will add some pics of me.

but, while we wait, i have a bit of a dilema.  i have to chose one of these 4 dresses for senior prom and i cant chose cuz they;re all so lovely!!   HELP!!

http://www.amazon.com/Evening-Strapless-Wedding-Sean-Collection/dp/B0012E2TKW/ref=sr_1_153?ie=UTF8&s=apparel&qid=1218672815&sr=1-153

the one below comes in this color and lime green. check out both!!

http://www.amazon.com/Evening-Strapless-Wedding-Sean-Collection/dp/B00129FW2E/ref=sr_1_403?ie=UTF8&s=apparel&qid=1218673334&sr=1-403

this one comes in blue and pink

http://www.amazon.com/Evening-Periwinkle-Strapless-Sean-Collection/dp/B00129FW5G/ref=sr_1_359?ie=UTF8&s=apparel&qid=1218673257&sr=1-359

this one comes in MANY different colors

http://www.amazon.com/Strapless-Taffeta-Bridesmaid-Prom-Dress/dp/B00144L8LG/ref=sr_1_263?ie=UTF8&s=apparel&qid=1218672064&sr=1-263

this is senior prom so i want it to be an awesome dress. check out all the colors and let me know.  i need lotsa help!!  THANX  i wont post again until i have pics of me :P

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a special thank you to all the angels who replied to the previous post.  you guys are awesome. jus wanted to let you know

LOCKETS -- i really am trying to let it go.  i know thats what you told me so i promise i'll try real hard :)

STARBUCK -- yea i kno.  it happens a lot doesnt it?? and yes they do look very much alike.  the only thing i am trying to do right now is to get thru the day and the days ahead.

LT ALIAS -- you know my room was already a mess?  so i took your advice and blasted the radio and got a lot of the work done that needed to be done.  i even started singing along to some of the songs after about an hour.  after two hours i had even started dancing a bit :)  

thank you three so much for all the advice and hugs i got.  they were very much appreciated!!!!

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yea so right now my life sucks...........

what a night.

first i was talking to Al (texting) and he sends "i'm sry. i jus honestly dont think us in a relationship would work.  ur great but there's other complications"   i wasnt devastated because i think in the back of my mind i knew it would never work.  so i said "ok lets be friends ect"

then i texted Josh on the advice of Ana who said to invite him to this place where she and her friend were going.  so i said ok and texted him the message and asked if he would like to keep me company.  this was the reply   "lose my f***ing number do not text me back ever"

all in one night.

so......yeah.

numb.

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so i guess poeple wanted to see pics of Al  too so they could compare him and josh......well here's one...its not very good but it was the best i could find...


 http://www.isledegrande.com/giimages13/al-salamone12-22-05.jpg

well, enjoy i guess lol

 
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this is more for the Angels than any1 else....

ok so its like 1am right now and i have been awake for hours dancing and thinking (i think better when i dance/move)  i cannot get Josh out of my mind rite now.......its ridiculous. i havent had 1 goodnight's sleep since i saw him on the 4th.  or one dry-eyed night.  its nuts.

anyway, here's a pic for those angels who wanna see him..... he's the one in the front wit the blue/gray shirt.

http://www.isledegrande.com/giimages13/football-awards12-15-05.jpg

its kinda a bad pic but whatev......

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ok so i saw LT ALIAS' vids and wanted to post a few of my own...... these are very random and old lol

this is the musical we were in....

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_S-mXWzm31A

this is Lee and his friends dancing at the talent show....Lee is in red

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=soL_TVvvKRY

this is Inlite....a band at our school....love you guys!!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EStPMcXsg0E

HAVE FUN WATCHING!!!

wow i feel like an idiot lol.  

i was stressing over something that didnt happen.  wanna kno why he didnt text back?? HE FELL ASLEEP!! hahahaa  omg.

so i was sitting at home and i decided to text him to see if he would talk then.  turns out he was down the street at a mutual friends house so he told me to come over and we talked about last night.  he told me he fell asleep and we both laughed.  he actually did get my text and told me yesterday that he was, in fact, a christian, but i think we have two different ideas of what a christian is........so we'll see how that goes but for now we're planning to hang out sometime this week

altho someone HAS to tell josh that me and Al arent dating cuz his mom got the messages wrong and told him me and Al were dating and he FLIPPED OUT.....so.......

all in all, yesterday was a good day :P

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so anyway, please dont mind me, im in a bit of a rut at the moment....

so anyway, me and Al were texting last night and at first it was jus random stuff about how he should come over and i could tell his how a certain movie was and whatever.  then it got not so random when he texted me this forwarded message:

"Here's your chance to ask me any question and i have to give an honest answer send to all your friends and see what they ask you"

so, at the advice of a friend i asked him "do you think you could ever see me as more than a friend?"  to which he replied "yes i think so"  so to be fair i sent the forward back to him.  his question was "how much of a future could you see w/me?" 

so, i was, very kindly btw, honest with him and told him that i thought i could see a very good future for the two of us if things were slightly different because i believe that i should only date people who are christians and share my beliefs.  

that was at 9:30pm last night.  it is now 9:12am and i havent heard back from him since, even last night when i sent him another text saying that i was sorry if i had hurt him and things never come out right when i try to say them and i didnt want to push him away.  

guys suck.

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